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The Ring isn't it gorgeous!

Well good news everyone. My honey came back to the Fayetteville area and we spent so much time together and we love each other so much more than words can express. Well he came back on July 3rd and we've been chillin. So a  day or two later he took me to the mall because someone hated my choice in my everyday shoes and wanted me to actually have a pair of Jordan's in my closet. And that was cool no big deal at all. So we spent some much needed time got a new pair of shoes, he bought some new earrings and a new hat and I got to pick the embroidery on the hat and I bought us some lunch. After that I took him to the sleep number store and let him get the experience and he loved the bed. After all I had his back in mind when I did all this. (Ok so I confess my back was in it too but thats just between us!) So after we just enjoyed each others company for the rest of that day but I had choir rehearsal and it was no big deal but when I came back his brother was down visiting with his kids and they were livin it up! LOL But then someone called me into the living room and I figured he needed my input on a song like normal but he didn't I turned around and his parents and his brother were standing right behind me and I was like whats going on and before I noticed he was down on one knee. I can only imagine the face I made but I turned back to his parents and said, "What the hell is this?!?" Only I would say that but of course my answer to his marriage proposal was YES and why would I say something else. Makes no sense. So here we are. I have come to the consensus that I don't want a big wedding at all. I would rather us go to the court house and get married and then meet everyone for dinner. No need for anything extra we don't need it. But I think he has something different in mind. So yes I have moved but its ok. Everything is working itself out perfectly and there is no need to worry about me. Just send your blessings. 

Love is Truly A Journey...

Love is truly a journey and my goodness let me explain mine and Xavier's journey. I have to be honest and get ALL of this off my chest. He and I have this on and off again relationship but this girl is so ready to commit. I put on this tough girl fore sod  but deep down I want to be happy. One of the guys at church keeps teasing me saying "So whens the wedding?" He was always saying that but I laugh and say "What wedding?" Really we say May 5th. It was supposed to be this year but I guess maybe it will be next year (It's a Sunday!) Ok back to the story, so he and I met in 8th grade we had Social Studies, Science and Math together. Although I was crushing on my bestie Greg, there was something about Xae I couldn't shake. He had this nonchalant attitude about him but as you start to crush on someone you start to notice the little things about them that would seem tedious and meaningless but its those little things you begin to love and cherish. I had no idea then that slowly this dude was breaking this girl down. So we "dated" in 8th grade then broke up. Those were the years of strictly handholding. Afraid to kiss each other in front of our parents. Even though his dad saw love in us then we had no idea. We went on about our business and left each other alone but it hurt to see him with another girl. Then in High School we saw each other and those pesky feelings came back again. So, we ended up dating again in 10th grade. We had our moments just ask him. That was when we started kissing and I love kissing him still. Well we broke up then, and had other disagreements and such but we got over them. Well senior year came around and I was so ready to date him again only because I had it in mind this would be the last time. I cheered and he came to the game to watch me and I would wink at him and blow kisses to him. Then we went our separate ways and for awhile I didn't know if I would ever see him or hear from him again. Then, college years and I ended up getting making a page and soon enough I seen him again. It broke my heart when he told me he was married. But at the time I was dating someone else so I put my best foot forward and said well I'd love to meet your wife and maybe we could go out to dinner together both couples. I wouldn't trust he and I in the same room alone PERIOD! That never happened but last February we got back in touch and have been speaking ever since. He came home for R and R and every moment was true love. But once again we separated. But this is the last and FINAL time. I have come to the consensus that if we don't work this time then that's it. We would have to move on, so with that being said here's the last 15 mins of this movie. Let's see how it ends up and the journey of a new chapter. I loved him then, and I still love him now! -DaMonique

Been A Long Time....

Hey Followers,
It has been quite awhile since I have written on here but not to worry I am back and have a whole lot to tell you. Well for one the boys are back with their daddy and I couldn't be happier for him to get acquainted with them. They are doing wonderful. And Jordan is truly amazing and a brat. I truly believe my cousin is going to be just fine, although, I feel in my heart he is not over Jasmine I know she will be guiding him along the way. Well good news everyone I HAVE A MAN! Lol! Yes, my handsome, truly amazing hero of a one day husband Xavier is back and kicking. I am so happy and delighted to be with him for this last and FINAL time. He has no idea how bad I just want to be with him, and how marriage scares me but I am ok knowing that this will be our marriage and we will help and support each other everyday of our lives. He is truly amazing. This time I want him to ask my parents for my hand in marriage  and I don't want to be rude or come off like a jerk but I have to put my foot down too. I have only waited since senior year in high school. I tried relationships with other people and trust me it didn't end well. But this time I am not running and I will definitely give my relationship to God and let him guide us on this journey in life and love together. Oh yeah I found my 8701 CD after all these years. My baby brother is about to graduate high school and i feel overwhelmed with joy for him. And not to mention I have decided not to go on the family cruise this year, on account that I will be spending my moments with Xae loving him and celebrating his 24th birthday together. It just brings me joy knowing that I am about to live these special wonderful moments with the man of my dreams. I had the MS Walk on April 1st, yes on April Fool's Day! We did wonderfully! Easter was ok but I have been doing this project building a tabernacle with this guy at my church and I think he likes me. He bought me a late birthday present and a cake. WEIRD! But I did have to tell him I was in love with a man even though he lives in Germany for the time being (Xae does!). Put your worst foot forward and have faith that God will guide you in whatever you may partake in doing! The lesson here is HAVE FAITH! Til my next post (which will be in a few mins) -DaMonique

Boredom

A Fun Questionnaire

WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?

 My first name is after mom, but part of my middle name came from an aunt who passed.

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED AND WHY?  

Last night don't ask I was going thru something just let it come to pass b/c i already did.

 YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? 

 Yes

 WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT? 

 Turkey Breast

 DO YOU HAVE KIDS? 

Depends on the day, LOL. None naturally though.

 IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?

ABSOLUTELY

 DO YOU USE SARCASM ALOT?

Sometimes

 DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS? 

yes

WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?

Probably not

WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL?

Apple Jacks and Cinnamon Cheerios

DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?

 NO. I hate shoe strings.

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG?

The bottom half of course. Top uhhh-NAH

WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM?

Vanilla

WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE ?

THEIR EYES

RED OR PINK?

 Red

WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING About yourself ?

 The butt and thighs part.

WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST  ? 

Great-Grandma and Jasmine and BG

    

WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING?

 Black shorts and no shoes

WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE ?

Boston Market

WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?

ESPN

IF YOU WHERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?

Baby Blue

FAVORITE SMELLS?

 Fresh Smells like Fresh Apple Pie... etc

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?

 Mom

FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH?

Football

HAIR COLOR? 

Black but I want Auburn looking highlights soon. 

EYE COLOR?

 Dark Brown

DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?

Yes

FAVORITE FOOD?

Spaghetti or anything mostly Italian

SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS? 

Neither something that can make me laugh DUH

LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?

 Part of Colombiana

WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING? 

Dark blue 

SUMMER OR WINTER?

Summer

HUGS OR KISSES?

 Depends who its from 

FAVORITE DESSERT? 

Tough one.. something chocolate I’m sure 

WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW? 

Cosmopolitan 

WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?

don’t have one

WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON T.V. LAST NIGHT? 

My Wife and Kids

FAVORITE SOUND?

The baby trying to talk.

ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES? 

Beatles 

WHAT IS THE FURTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME?

Europe- Germany

DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT? 

 singing and play instruments

WHERE WERE YOU BORN? 

Fort Bragg, NC

Could you really tell how bored I really was?!? 

The Hopeful New Year

You have no idea what I have been going through mentally and socially. Must say, I so badly didn't want to get into a relationship until the new year started and yet, I must admit sometimes its lonely being by yourself. Don't let people fool you when they say that, trust me its so cliche. Bringing in the New Year at church is always great don't get me wrong, but I swear it never beats spending that time with your significant other. But that is over. I just had to promise myself that next year I will be better and hopefully I will have more than a boo thang to spend that moment with. 2011, was truly a year that brought a lot of past feelings and too much impulsive movement and actions. So, this year I feel like the best thing for me to do is to take the backseat when it comes to love and stop being so demanding and impetuous. I just don't want to mess anything up and the situation I am in now is exactly what I didn't want to be in again, but to that amazing person I am going to leave that part up to you. That is the better decision. I was just hoping with this man I would finally win and maybe the winning part will happen if we ever get together. I am not the same person I was a few years ago, I have 3 responsibilities (partially) and trust me I would never want anything to ever jeopardize that. But hopefully someone will see the better side of me, outside of them. But as I am typing all of this don't think that I won't have to ever put my foot down and be me, the demanding and sometimes impatient person I have always been, but just this time I will use my better judgement and actually plan some things through. I swear right now I just feel like something is missing in my life and I believe I have found it but we will see if I am ever given the opportunity. I hope this year will bring the best out of me and with that being said I will close and say sometimes you have to depend on a star and a prayer when dealing with matters of the heart and the L word..... LOVE! (Fairy Tale Stuff but it helps get the edge off of reality.)

A New Year But A Continuously Growing Me!

In order from left to right, Jaiden, Jordan and Isaiah the Christmas outfits mom bought them for Christmas morning.

So, I have been noticing lately that my wardrobe has changed and that I have been ironing a lot more, and I care about the way I look more. Well, outside anyways, inside is totally different because who cares. I have been trying to look more adult-like. Ever since I have had the boys I have noticed I turned into a more mature me and that is nothing to be ashamed of. I kind of laugh because I always told mom the right man was going to bring it out of me but little did I know it was going to be the right 3 Little Men. I love them with all my heart. Not to mention today is my Mom's Birthday. So I can only expect AMAZING things to come out of this year. Sticking with my commitment to Jesus Christ alone and now ready to build on to this glorious relationship with him! Love you all and I only pray you have a VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Losing a Friend

So, I found it out of the ordinary last week when an ex-co-worker asked me if I heard about another missing co-worker. I said no until I looked at the newspaper and saw that face in the newspaper. My heart sank so badly. Not this co-worker not her, not my Dynee. The crazy lady who always laughed and was so bubbly and giggly. But it was. My goodness, the compassion that those co-workers and I had, I swear we felt that the police weren't looking hard enough and we had to do our own investigating. Things to me just didn't add up and knowing that Dynee was about to be a college graduate that week had me going in circles. I knew she wasn't that depressed she had a bunch of people behind her. When a few of us got together and conducted our own search party we ran into some of Dynee's friends and we explained who we were and began talking we all loved Dynee the same. I swear she had that angelic impact on other people and I love her even more. The compassion she had for everyone was just that much more comforting and knowing her belief in the Lord was just that much more amazing about her. I will never understand why people do such horrific, shameless, cowardly things. If that is supposed to make you more macho or something you should have done it in public like those old gangsters used to do instead of leaving someone to die. That was selfish and so since I believe in God so much I will leave it into his hands and let him deal with you accordingly because you can hide from us but you can't hide from God. And I only pray for the comfort of Dynee's family and friends. And like another said, "To know Dynee is to love Dynee, and to love Dynee made life that much more special." (Sam Bradford) May she Rest in peace and be with God and her beloved Husband.