Boredom

A Fun Questionnaire

WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?

 My first name is after mom, but part of my middle name came from an aunt who passed.

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED AND WHY?  

Last night don't ask I was going thru something just let it come to pass b/c i already did.

 YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? 

 Yes

 WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT? 

 Turkey Breast

 DO YOU HAVE KIDS? 

Depends on the day, LOL. None naturally though.

 IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?

ABSOLUTELY

 DO YOU USE SARCASM ALOT?

Sometimes

 DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS? 

yes

WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?

Probably not

WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL?

Apple Jacks and Cinnamon Cheerios

DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?

 NO. I hate shoe strings.

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG?

The bottom half of course. Top uhhh-NAH

WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM?

Vanilla

WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE ?

THEIR EYES

RED OR PINK?

 Red

WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING About yourself ?

 The butt and thighs part.

WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST  ? 

Great-Grandma and Jasmine and BG

    

WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING?

 Black shorts and no shoes

WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE ?

Boston Market

WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?

ESPN

IF YOU WHERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?

Baby Blue

FAVORITE SMELLS?

 Fresh Smells like Fresh Apple Pie... etc

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?

 Mom

FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH?

Football

HAIR COLOR? 

Black but I want Auburn looking highlights soon. 

EYE COLOR?

 Dark Brown

DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?

Yes

FAVORITE FOOD?

Spaghetti or anything mostly Italian

SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS? 

Neither something that can make me laugh DUH

LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?

 Part of Colombiana

WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING? 

Dark blue 

SUMMER OR WINTER?

Summer

HUGS OR KISSES?

 Depends who its from 

FAVORITE DESSERT? 

Tough one.. something chocolate I’m sure 

WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW? 

Cosmopolitan 

WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?

don’t have one

WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON T.V. LAST NIGHT? 

My Wife and Kids

FAVORITE SOUND?

The baby trying to talk.

ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES? 

Beatles 

WHAT IS THE FURTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME?

Europe- Germany

DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT? 

 singing and play instruments

WHERE WERE YOU BORN? 

Fort Bragg, NC

Could you really tell how bored I really was?!? 

The Hopeful New Year

You have no idea what I have been going through mentally and socially. Must say, I so badly didn't want to get into a relationship until the new year started and yet, I must admit sometimes its lonely being by yourself. Don't let people fool you when they say that, trust me its so cliche. Bringing in the New Year at church is always great don't get me wrong, but I swear it never beats spending that time with your significant other. But that is over. I just had to promise myself that next year I will be better and hopefully I will have more than a boo thang to spend that moment with. 2011, was truly a year that brought a lot of past feelings and too much impulsive movement and actions. So, this year I feel like the best thing for me to do is to take the backseat when it comes to love and stop being so demanding and impetuous. I just don't want to mess anything up and the situation I am in now is exactly what I didn't want to be in again, but to that amazing person I am going to leave that part up to you. That is the better decision. I was just hoping with this man I would finally win and maybe the winning part will happen if we ever get together. I am not the same person I was a few years ago, I have 3 responsibilities (partially) and trust me I would never want anything to ever jeopardize that. But hopefully someone will see the better side of me, outside of them. But as I am typing all of this don't think that I won't have to ever put my foot down and be me, the demanding and sometimes impatient person I have always been, but just this time I will use my better judgement and actually plan some things through. I swear right now I just feel like something is missing in my life and I believe I have found it but we will see if I am ever given the opportunity. I hope this year will bring the best out of me and with that being said I will close and say sometimes you have to depend on a star and a prayer when dealing with matters of the heart and the L word..... LOVE! (Fairy Tale Stuff but it helps get the edge off of reality.)

A New Year But A Continuously Growing Me!

In order from left to right, Jaiden, Jordan and Isaiah the Christmas outfits mom bought them for Christmas morning.

So, I have been noticing lately that my wardrobe has changed and that I have been ironing a lot more, and I care about the way I look more. Well, outside anyways, inside is totally different because who cares. I have been trying to look more adult-like. Ever since I have had the boys I have noticed I turned into a more mature me and that is nothing to be ashamed of. I kind of laugh because I always told mom the right man was going to bring it out of me but little did I know it was going to be the right 3 Little Men. I love them with all my heart. Not to mention today is my Mom's Birthday. So I can only expect AMAZING things to come out of this year. Sticking with my commitment to Jesus Christ alone and now ready to build on to this glorious relationship with him! Love you all and I only pray you have a VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Losing a Friend

So, I found it out of the ordinary last week when an ex-co-worker asked me if I heard about another missing co-worker. I said no until I looked at the newspaper and saw that face in the newspaper. My heart sank so badly. Not this co-worker not her, not my Dynee. The crazy lady who always laughed and was so bubbly and giggly. But it was. My goodness, the compassion that those co-workers and I had, I swear we felt that the police weren't looking hard enough and we had to do our own investigating. Things to me just didn't add up and knowing that Dynee was about to be a college graduate that week had me going in circles. I knew she wasn't that depressed she had a bunch of people behind her. When a few of us got together and conducted our own search party we ran into some of Dynee's friends and we explained who we were and began talking we all loved Dynee the same. I swear she had that angelic impact on other people and I love her even more. The compassion she had for everyone was just that much more comforting and knowing her belief in the Lord was just that much more amazing about her. I will never understand why people do such horrific, shameless, cowardly things. If that is supposed to make you more macho or something you should have done it in public like those old gangsters used to do instead of leaving someone to die. That was selfish and so since I believe in God so much I will leave it into his hands and let him deal with you accordingly because you can hide from us but you can't hide from God. And I only pray for the comfort of Dynee's family and friends. And like another said, "To know Dynee is to love Dynee, and to love Dynee made life that much more special." (Sam Bradford) May she Rest in peace and be with God and her beloved Husband.

A Footstep Towards Success

So today I had a college tour with Miller Motte. Yes, I know your saying a college tour at 23 and didn't I go to UNC-P? Well let me explain that. I went into college right after high school but you see I had no on earthly idea where I wanted to go. I swore Pharmacy was it and of course I would love to have that kind of salary but things didn't quite work out like that. From there it was education but when that one Professor told me that I wasn't good enough I began to lose hope in myself. I played Mandy Moore's "Have a Little Faith In Me" Song every time I had to meet with that particular Professor. But when I was told that I died on the inside, not to mention my then boyfriend at the time broke my heart and we had future plans together. And then the biggest bomb of all I got sick happened. All back to back so can you imagine where my self-esteem was and then where my head was. It was just that bad. So I ended up dropping out and started to find my own way back to college on my own. So that brings me to today. I went on that tour and absolutely loved the atmosphere and the teachers. Everyone believed in everyone and the best part was that they have FREE tutoring. Plus, there is a dress code so everyone must wear the issued scrubs they give you. I can live with that. So since my application was free I decided to apply and guess what? I GOT ACCEPTED!!! So, therefore on January 18, 2012 I will begin my journey at Miller Motte College. Let's get this Medical Assisting Degree down so I can move up to Nursing!!! I'm ready to accomplish my dreams and no one can stop me and if someone tries they have dirt to eat first.

Knowing Your Strength

I was always taught you never know your true strength until it is tested. Who knew that August 18, 2011 would change my life and daily routines. I tell you I give all REAL parents a standing ovation because it is a tough job. On the morning of August 18, 2011 I was asleep in Gram's bed (like usual she has a sleep number) and around 6 am her phone rang and it was my Aunt and I just figured my cousin's girlfriend Jasmine went into labor and I was about to say I will be up at the hospital after work but this morning was especially different because Gram jumped up and yelled WHAT! So, could you imagine. Well she was like get up we have to go over to their house and i was like ok so i flushed with mouthwash and threw on a jacket and was like lets go. Little did I know as we were traveling over there Jasmine was dying and they were trying their hardest to revive her. But once we arrived at the apartment  my Aunt was covered in tears and her face was red and the boys were just playing like nothing happened. I couldn't help but grab them and kiss them because every part of me died moments prior of opening the front door. So since then I have had the boys and parts of me complain because of my back but the rewarding parts come into play once they kiss you or show you their art work from daycare. So, in other words you will never know your strength until it is tested. You are stronger than what people say and never say you wouldn't do something because although I didn't want to be a mommy right now I am filling a void in that gap for 3 precious boys and I wouldn't trade my day job with anyone else.